Resolute

I rarely allow myself to get caught in the wake of new year resolutions. Many times the degree that we long for a something in our lives is only to be outdone by our lack of ability to make that change and we revert back to the old habit or fail in beginning a new one.

As I walked through Detroit on the first morning of the new year, there was something different in the air and the onset of 2013 struck incredibly profound to me. It is clear to me that this impression was perpetuated from living alone again and the emotional adversity that can follow has certainly been present and accounted for.

I realize today that I have chased happiness through many avenues; women, friends, hobbies and other pleasant distractions that I do not wish to specifically name. Never once has that happiness come from within and alas I do not believe my world has ever even seen a light drizzle. That drought ends this year.

In other words, 2013 is undoubtedly and unequivocally mine for the taking.

Louis Brandeis was dead on when he said “Sunlight is said to be the best of disinfectants.” I will then tip some "sunlight" for all of you on my intentions and hopefully that will add validity to my level of commitment in this effort.

1. I will add to this blog once per week for the entire year.
2. I will quit smoking, immediately.
3. I will restart and complete my P90x program by April 1st, 2013.
4. 2013 will be the first and debt-purging year of my 3 year plan to own a home on/near a lake.
5. Most importantly, I will learn to be happy alone before my next emotional journey.

There you have it, the five things I am aiming for this year to improve my life. I have always wanted to write some type of blog but failed to find things I was passionate about. If I do not have passion for this, then I have nothing else. So please, come along with me on this endeavor as I begin to reconcile with myself. I intend to describe and identify the difficulty of this for myself and, of course, what gets measured gets improved.